Today, after t-ball Grady came home and wrote this:
We are crazy proud of how great he is at writing even at age 5. For those of you who can’t exactly make it out, though it says:
“Oh how I love God because he first loved me.”
More than his writing we are very proud of his sweet heart.
Just got a call from the doctor… Mostly good news.
First — the bad news. The MRI was inconclusive. Because of hormones related to her menstrual cycle, the radiologists couldn’t read the results of the MRI. So, we’ll have to redo it in a week or so.
The good news is very good. To put it as the doctor did, “Holly, you are going to be okay. We are going to get this all out — you are going to raise your kids and go shopping again.”
The type of cancer she has is Carcinoma in situ. Some call it more of a pre-cancer than cancer. It is non-invasive, meaning it won’t spread to another part of her body. This is HUGE — it spreading was Holly’s biggest fear.
The doctor also described it as at it’s earliest stages, and very treatable. We’ll know after the next MRI how extensive it is within her breasts.
We’ll meet with the doctor again on Monday, which we are looking forward to. She’s an amazing Christian, and reminded us, “for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.” — 2 Tim 1:7
So we enter the weekend, full of hope — not in doctors or medicine — but in a God that has given us His spirit of power and love inside of us.
Thanks to all for the prayers. We feel every one.
Today was the next step in the testing process. Holly went in the morning for a specialized breast MRI. What we thought was routine, turned out to be we were at one of only a few in the Dallas area. Evidently, lots of women want to be able to get this test done, but it’s not covered by all insurance. Thankfully, there was no issue with ours.
It was the third time we had been at the Sue A. de Mille Women’s Diagnostic Center at Plano Presbyterian Hospital. Holly has has every test run that they offer there (except a bone density which she shouldn’t need for a long time). The staff has been amazing — a true blessing have been sent there by our doctor.
That said, the test was pretty scary. This MRI is louder than normal — lots of pounding, popping — all while you are facing face down. At least nothing needed cut open, and there were no big needles for this test.
We didn’t get any results from the MRI. Since it’s so specialized, only a few radiologists can read it. Also, it takes a lot more pictures than a normal MRI, so it takes a while to analyze. The end result is, we won’t know any more until Monday or Tuesday.
Emotionally, we are pretty raw. We find the grief comes in waves, caused by the most random things. It might be looking at the beautiful faces of our kids, or even trying to make the smallest plan for the future. we’re trying to take it one day (sometimes one hour, or one minute) at a time.
We’ve had great support from family, friends, and church. We don’t know what’s next but we do know God is good and that He has a great purpose in all this. A friend sent this, and it has been great comfort:
There is nothing—absolutely no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose which I may not understand at the moment. But as I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him, and I accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow will ever disturb me, no trial will ever disarm me, no circumstance will cause me to fret, and I shall rest in the joy of what my Lord is. That is the rest of victory. –Dr. Alan Redpath
Here’s the email I sent out to friends and family yesterday:
I assume you most of you already got the news that Holly’s biopsy came back positive today for breast cancer. Specifically, she has Ductal Carcinoma in SITU (DCIS).
Here’s the next steps we know so far. We’re trying to schedule an MRI for tomorrow. It is much more sensitive for the smaller spots that may exist. When they did the biopsy yesterday, the cluster of calcium deposits was small enough that they could remove them through the needle. They need to test and see where, if anywhere, the spots exist that they couldn’t detect on the mammogram.
After that we plan on meeting early next week with the Breast Surgeon, who can lay out the options of lumpectomy or mastectomy. After that surgery is done, we would look at chemo and or radiation for any possible remaining spots.
That’s pretty much all we know for now. It’s still sinking in and we are obviously taken aback by the news — even in writing this email it is sinking in more and more. We have good support around us, and one friend already heading into town to help with the kids. We are blessed to have amazing medical care, and that it seems (at least so far) that we found it very early.
We are working hard to lean on God, as it seems us He has given us a new fight to fight. He is good and faithful — we know that.
Thanks to all for there prayers and support. We love you much.
Our website has been down for a while, and you will notice it looks quite a bit different right now. In a classic “the cobbler’s children have no shoes” move I have neglected this site for a while because I’ve been working on other sites for my web design business.
So, I’ll keep working on it, but I figured something not looking right is better than nothing at all.
This weekend we had the pleasure of attending a family reunion on Holly’s side. This was a gathering of all of Holly’s mom first cousins. We met up in Lake Whitney, TX and had a grand old time. I put my off camera flashes to work and they performed admirably.
View the photos. Watch the Slideshow. Order prints from Snapfish.
I’ve a little bit of new camera equipment to build up my photo game. I’m trying to get better with light. I’ve been inspired by a website called Strobist, that’s all about using off camera flash to light your pictures. I took some fun shots, mostly of the kids, and figured it was time to share. Enjoy.
We continued our tradition of trick-or-treating with Andy and April this year. We had a great time raiding their neighborhood for candy. Austin and Grady were old pros, and Abbey figured it out quickly.
All the photos are here one-by-one or as a slideshow.
